MICCIAH CHANNEL: JULIE WINTER
Produced by Jon Child
Transcript of Program 30, 1985
Some of Julie’s early work in channel from 1985 where Micciah deals with issues raised by the class:
• Healing a negative self-image through acknowledging the self with acceptance and compassion View Section
• Creating a balance between prosperity, a healthy ego and spiritual growth View Section
• The role of artists in this culture View Section
• The experience of shame or guilt when we get what we want View Section
• Expressing anger View Section
• A meditation on the sacred and your connection to it View Section
(The original video tape is just slightly damaged.)
Micciah: We greet you all, dear friends.
Julie: We do greet you, indeed. This is Micciah Channel, and I’m Julie Winter. Micciah is an energy entity who works with me while I’m in trance, and while I’m in the trance state I have access to a point of view that seems to come from a non-physical realm. This series of programs is drawn primarily from videotapes taken during my regular classes. We want to expand our circle, and include your energy and interest in our work.
This program is about one’s personal connection with the sacred, and the first segment deals with how to heal a damaged or negative self-image by being able to acknowledge all of the parts of the self.
Micciah: You have asked about negative self-image. A damaged sense of self-worth on the psychological level accrues from distorted messages given in the original home, in the culture, and so forth. And it does indicate that the being is disconnected from source self. So it is not so much to transform the image in a mechanical sense, that is, to think positive, as it is to open up the channel to the source which is always there. And then it will take care of itself. When you have compassion for yourself, when you honor yourself, exactly the way you are, when you are kind toward yourself, then the image begins to shift. Sometimes a negative self-image is punitive, punishing the self for bad thoughts and bad feelings, that is to say there is a split in the personality, and one part of the personality considers another part bad. Bad sexual feelings, bad angry feelings. Bad in quotes. And acquires a negative self-image as a sort of self-punishment. So then the healing would be to allow the feelings, all the images, to let it be part of life, always rising and falling and wiggling and heating and cooling off, shifting and changing.
It is not so much that you wish to acquire a positive self-image, which would be the other side of the negative, but that you wish to be able to be in your true self, to have as much of the soul’s energy as possible penetrate out into life, and that is what a great teacher is and great teachers come in the most ordinary places. We would say vulnerability, the vulnerability to life, is essential in a teacher.
Julie: This next portion deals with how to balance prosperity and spiritual concerns; how a quality of yearning really underlies a great deal of what we perceive of as greed; and what it means to have integrity and to be aligned with a personal sense of prosperity.
Bob: What creates a balance between prosperity, a healthy ego, and spiritual growth?
Micciah: It is a one-word answer. Integrity. But we will say more than that. If you begin with spiritual development, if you start there, as a matrix, then the ways in which you deal with economics, with having, with giving and taking, will be aligned, or balanced, with spiritual principles. Once you are connected with your own core, and personality is informed by the core, then the actions that you take in the world must reflect that love and that connection. When individuals, and then groups, have moved away from the core, then the strength of the ego, in a psychological sense, begins to become not really strong, because real strength is flexible, and yields, is not hard. So, when the ego is developed at the expense of, or excluded from spiritual connection, then everything goes out of balance, because the personality is then in control of the boat, the personality is steering the ship. And you know your personality, which is wonderful, also has many, many desires that are unnecessary. The monkey mind chatters on about what it must have, and it is always looking at the neighbor to see what the neighbor has that could be appealing, and looking backwards and forwards in life and not being in the moment. The personality is a useful cloak and an adornment and necessary, but it should not be in charge. And the misery that is caused by the personality in its disconnected state, making choices that affect the planet, is very obvious in the history of the earth as you know it, with the exception of certain groups of people at certain times and certain individual people within all the groups at all times.
Now listen. When the mind is in charge, that aspect of mind, then all of life is reduced to a mechanical kind of movement, and instead of working within the self to liberate the enormous powers of love, the gentle power, the yielding power, the exciting power, what happens is that the personality tries to figure things out and to get it all organized, with strategies and counter-strategies, weapons and counter-weapons. What happens is what you have. There is no hope in that direction. It is a branch of the tree that you will fall off. Because it is disconnected from the source, all that is left is strategy. As soon as you make a strategy with that aspect of the mind, another strategy pops up, and another, and a possible counter-strategy, so you have spies and counter-spies, and weapons and counter-weapons. Do you see? Do you understand?
When the self is yielding and soft, then each self goes to each situation and says, not, “What can I grab?” — which is always a fear reaction (we are not criticizing) — but that self says, “Well, how can we all give? How can we all move together, since the energy of everything is affected by the energy of everything else?” And that most obviously affects the economics. In the loss of spirit in terms of your connection to it, you are — not just you, everyone is — prone to develop tremendous greed. The greed is really longing, and the longing is not for another thing, another possession. The longing is to feel the connection. All work is work on the self. You will have peace on the earth when you have peace in your hearts.
Julie: Now Micciah is going to answer questions about disconnection from the sacred, and the ways in which we make a personal connection, or disconnect, from the experience of what’s sacred in ordinary life. The first segment is about the artist and the role of the artist in making contact with the sacred. The second segment is about shame and guilt, and the way in which those compound complex feelings, which are not really root feelings, disconnect us from experiencing the sacred. The third is the way in which anger can either be a dislocation from that which is sacred, or a clear expression of it.
And we’re also going to have a special meditation.
Micciah: Now, strange coincidence, we come to the role of the artist. In other times, art and architecture and mathematics and religion and healing were all unified, so that buildings were built which reflected certain aspects of consciousness, and dances were danced that also reflected certain aspects, or the celebration of seasons, or the discharging of compulsions as a healing, or whatever. And art was created that reflected the wholeness of life.
Art is magical. Artists are oftentimes healers and magicians. You know listening to music can shift the access of your feeling — just like that! Or looking at a beautiful painting, or watching a dance.
Now the elements have become separated. Mathematics is mathematics, and architecture is architecture, for the most part. So the role of the artist is to remind the self and other selves of the wholeness of everything, either through detailing some miraculous small part or finding a panoramic view. Art is a way through to the sacred, to remind you that life is sacred. All of it, all of it is sacred, not just the part the personality likes. The artist is the awakener, is the magician; and art can cut through the crystallizations of personality, it can press right through to the core. Great writing, great painting, great singing.
It is the dislocation of the experience, the personal experience, of the sacred, the sacred in the ordinary, the sacred in all moments of life, in all your funny ups and downs. It is the dislocation that causes shame or guilt in receiving that which you wish to have.
There is also the question of what level of the self wishes to have what is wished to have. We have talked before about the difference between the law of manifestation, which can just create more and more and more, and the great law of abundance, which includes the flow in and the flow out. When there is a dislocation of the sacred, there is also a disruption in the flow in and the flow out; and then the personality becomes blinded in a certain sense, grasping, greedy, because there is not the deeper satisfaction. Then there are complex feelings about having what one wishes. This is a complicated subject. It is possible to feel guilt at having what one wishes because in the psychological realm, the emotional plane, you don’t experience your self-worth. But that too, you see, is a dislocation from the sacred.
You are “worthy” because you are a good child, because you behave, but because you are part of spirit.
So when there is psychological lack of worth, then the cord, the tissue, of the sacred has been shut off, and then there is a problem with taking in.
This is quite a lot. We would like you to meditate during the week. We would like you to meditate on your connection to the sacred. Contemplate your connection to the sacred. It will affect the way you create and recreate the earth, it will affect the way you express your feelings, including your anger. Holding grudges. Holding, crystallizing emotionally, whether it’s a grudge or a hurt or an insult, is also a disconnection from the sacred and a disconnection from the great law of abundance which flows in and flows out. And anger, as we have said before, is an expression of territorial rights. Clear anger keeps the peace. Sour, sour anger and impotence creates violence. So, meditate on your connection to the sacred. Our friend here [Mordecai, the cat] does not have any problem with his connection to the sacred. He knows his rights.
We thank you very much. Often when you meet like this, there are other energies present in the room, as well as yourselves. The room is really quite crowded. And your work is a blessing. And we thank all of you, and we bid you a very good and joyful day.
— Meditation —
Julie: Now here’s a meditation that you can do with us. Let your breath relax, and let your eyes rest on the images on the screen. You can listen to the sound of my voice, only half listening, somewhat listening, letting your breath relax, allowing your eyes to rest on the images. This is a meditation on the sacred, and your own individual connection to that which is a sacred pattern within the movement, and sometimes, the apparent chaos of ordinary life. In just living, in choosing, you always have the chance to find the thread, the brightness, the luminosity of the sacred revealing itself in the choices that you make. You can choose to connect yourself with that which is sacred, to allow life to unfold through you in its multiplicity, the fire of oneness, the crystal fire of that which appears in everyday life that is the open, vulnerable heart of the sacred. You can choose, you can make a commitment, easily, gently, to choose the landscape of the sacred revealing itself in the shifting patterns of the way you live your life. What is sacred reveals itself. To be in the truth about your feelings and the landscape of the emotional realm, the sacred, to be in the truth of your heart, to nourish yourself while you grow, to share what is unfolding and knowing itself is sacred. In any moment in any time, maybe even right now, as you watch these images and listen to my voice, you can find the place within you that glows with that, which is by its nature, sacred.
Okay. Welcome back from the meditation. Take a moment and come back to what we laughingly refer to as ordinary reality. Take a breath.
Several final words. The thread that runs through my work of, which the channeling is one aspect, is healing. So, the thread of healing goes through my work with individuals, my teaching, my lecturing, my writing. And that healing, I believe, comes from a truthful exploration of one’s relationship with spirit. Spirit heals through us, and that healing enables us to be with the sacred nature of everyday life. I urge you to use your prayers and meditations toward experiencing the joy and sacred nature of life itself.
Julie: “This channeling is meant to be a spiritual, emotional, intellectual, heartful, mindful journey that I share with another realm, that I share with my classes and that we all share with you. Please go over the material, evaluate it for yourself, and know what it is that you think about it.”