MICCIAH CHANNEL: JULIE WINTER
Produced by Jon Child
Transcript of Program 40, 1986
Some of Julie’s early work in channel from 1985 where Micciah discusses:
• Feelings of guilt and self-blame when “bad” things happen in the context of the belief that we create our own reality. It is not actually the personality self which creates, but the Great Self, the “breath or the spaciousness of an awareness that is connected to sources far beyond the personality.” It creates a teaching. View Section
• What are dreams and how can we use them in healing? Dreams are “open channels to the great aspects of self and wisdom.” Make “a bridge between waking and sleeping.” View Section
Micciah: We greet you all, dear friends.
Julie: We do greet you, indeed. This is Micciah Channel, and I’m Julie Winter. Micciah is an energy entity who works with me while I’m in trance, and while I’m in the trance state I have access to a point of view that seems to come from a non-physical realm. This series of programs is drawn primarily from videotapes taken during my regular classes. We want to expand our circle, and include your energy and interest in our work.
Micciah: We greet you all, dear friends. Please, what are your questions?
Margarete: Micciah, we believe we create our own reality and often the result is the feeling of guilt, self-blame, when seemingly bad things happen in the context of this.
Micciah: Yes. You create your own reality. But we have discussed this before, recently. We will go through some of it again. When you say “you,” which you do you refer to? If you think you are the sum total of your personality, your likes, your dislikes, your habits, then you are imagining that your reality is created by a very small part of the self, which in fact is not capable of creating.
We will stop here for a moment. The personality which is wonderful, it is like a suit of clothes. We are not degrading the personality; but you need to understand its function. The personality, — this is a model, it is not the ultimate truth — the personality self is connected really strongly to the talking self, the linear aspects of mind, and the part of the self that is always yapping at you, “Well, I think I’ll get another job. Well, I won’t get another job. Maybe I’ll get another job. Well, I don’t think I like this job. Well, I think I’ll buy another pair of shoes. No, I won’t buy another pair of shoes. Well, maybe I will buy another pair...” It’s always talking. That is what it does. Some of it is very useful. The personality is a way of being in the world. But the personality does not have the wherewithal to create in the sense that you mean it when you say you create your own reality.
We will give an example about “this one” since we are very familiar with her. The focus of the personality in this life has a very rebellious quality, but that rebelliousness can only make things happen, it only will make things happen, in a mechanical sense. We will try to describe it. If you say Carol, “Well, you should do this, Julie,” And Julie says, “I don’t want to do that.” There is a back and forth, an oppositional back and forth at a personality level, due to the temperament of the personality, which is rebellious. The rebellious quality of the personality can make a fight, a mechanical sort of fight. And the life may be full of that, and then, in the greatest sense, then, you would be choosing it. But when we say “create,” we mean this: if the rebellious component of the personality self is harnessed to a deep yearning to transform what does not serve in the world, then the creative energies, the vast resources that are available, are released, and magnificent conditions arise. This little flapping ends here.
If you are stuck, in terms of your awareness, in the personality, then you are sort of confined to a mechanical view of the world. Your culture has a mechanical view of the world. You have a germ, you “catch” the germ, the germ “bites” you, you get sick, you take antibiotics, and the germ dies. Nowhere in this model is there a spaciousness, an awareness, an engaging, that links the event of illness to the events of consciousness. You’re just hanging out, and the germ “gets” you. And much of the model of the medical establishment (it is changing) but much of it is based essentially on this premise. You have a cancer, you zap it. If you kill the rest of the body in the process, well, that’s the way it goes. The cancer died, the patient died, everything died. Sometimes chemotherapy is very useful, sometimes radiation is useful. But, you understand, that is the mechanical level of mind. It has no space, it does not engage with consciousness. It is all about how this moves over here, and this moves over there, and that is the end of it. So, if you live your life in this way, in this narrow and confined way (and a frightening way, frightening way), then have you chosen that? Well, yes. You have the right to be confined to that for your lifetime if you wish it to be so. But then you are leaving out the component of creation. If you believe that the germ “bites” you, do you still create the disease? Yes. But you create it in a different context, because you don’t have an engaged awareness of what is going on. Do you think weapons that will destroy everything are going to protect you? Bigger weapons make peace. This is the mechanical consciousness at its most insane. Well, are you choosing all of that? Yes, yes. But you have not enlisted, you have not harnessed, all the resources that are available to create peace other than the mechanical “thing” that will blast you if you don’t agree. Are you following this? Clear? So far?
When you say you create your own reality, you are implying the breath or the spaciousness of an awareness that is connected to sources far beyond the personality. When you take that responsibility on yourself, when you celebrate that power within yourself, you are taking a step to say, “I am becoming mindful. I am engaging with the communication of my life and my world. I am letting it speak to me about the teaching of spirit, of that which is greater than the personality focus and that which really always cradles the personality if we become aware of it.” So, then you must know, it is not your personality self that is creating. It is the Great Self. Now, the Great Self can make choices and nudge the personality a little bit to align itself with it. Sometimes in the case of apparently dire illness, the Great Self, in agreement with the personality self, although it may not be a conscious agreement, says, “All right, are you ready to let the personal focus open? Are you ready to be flooded with love?” It comes in a funny package this time. It comes as AIDS, or it comes as cancer, or it comes as poverty. And this is presented to your personality, always with the possibility of becoming engaged with the teaching and celebrating the softening of the edges, the loosening of the confinement, the liberation from the containment of the imprisoning of the personality.
But it is the personality that first judges a situation, yes? Evaluates it. “Ech! This is horrible!” Anything from “I don’t like this” to “This is horrible!” “This is horrible, this disease is horrible. I’m terrified!”
Now, if you think your personality alone has created that disease, then you will stay in personality and blame yourself. “I created it. How could I do such a negative thing to my self?” You must open the context, [exhales] open the breath. The Great Self has created something as a teaching. The personality aspect of self has agreed, but it has not created. It doesn’t have the power. The personality can only make something happen. It can lift this bracelet. To create something, you invoke elements other than the personality. But it may be that the personality is too sealed in to appreciate that. And then, as we say, life remains, at least in your awareness of it, as a set of mechanical forces, one acting upon the other.
Well, what about blame? It is the personality that evaluates the world in terms of what is acceptable. To the Great Self, everything, all the experiences you could choose, are acceptable varieties of experience. And yet, paradoxically, the path is toward union, on all levels of the being, with love. And the love is so enormous, in terms of the Great Self and its connection, its natural connection to All That Is. Love is so enormous that anything you choose is acceptable. The personality self says, “No, I don’t like this, I don’t like that. This is good, this is bad, this is comfortable, this is not.” The Great Self accepts it all. Just burns it through, so it comes out as energy, again.
Lainie: So it’s the personality self that determines, makes the judgment as to whether this is easy or hard?
Micciah: Yes. Yes. Yes. At the first level, the first level of response is the personality self, and the talking self, saying, “I don’t like this,” or “Oh, I do like this.” But the more you work with yourself, or play, the more you are capable of having breath, having spaciousness between the personality self and the other aspects of self; so you know then that your personality self will always be talking and judging and evaluating, and that is not the truth. And by working with yourself, you have the resources to find the truth, your own greater truth, whatever it is.
So, when you read, for instance in Stephen Levine’s books, which are wonderful, wonderful books, WHO DIES?, and MEETINGS AT THE EDGE, about his work with people in grave illnesses, the personality self is not happy, but through the breath and through the person’s engaging with the other elements, it is clearly seen and experienced how extraordinary life is, in all its variety, including the circumstance of the person’s illness. You begin to move from the talking of the personal self and its likes and dislikes and habits to a grounding, or a conscious merging with the other aspects of self whose understanding is far beyond the personality’s capabilities. And then you begin to translate your experience through those elements. Then everything changes. Nothing in your circumstance may change. But everything changes. And you can change all the circumstances you want, and if you don’t make that shift, the changes are as nothing, there is no satisfaction. In a deep sense, there is no completion.
Lainie: Is it the personality self that determines that easy is good or hard is good?
Micciah: Yes. The personality self and its likes and dislikes and emotional habits and predilections and so forth. Yes. And if you stay within that as a focus, although you are in the greater sense still creating your reality — nobody else is around to do it — you don’t have the breath of awareness, or really the thrust that comes from engaging, or the ecstasy, or the surrender. So to go back, when you say, “I create my own reality,” you want to have it in the context of the Great Self, who is the creator.
Now, the personality can grab control of the wheels and not let go. It’s a choice. Then it will dictate orders to the Great Self, and the Great Self in its compassion will follow the orders, until such time as the personality yields itself up. The personality is still not doing the creating, but it can be doing the choosing. Then sometimes something will thunder in, the Great Self is tired of taking orders and says, “All right, we have your cooperation? We have your ear for a moment? Become engaged with this.”
Please go on.
Carol: We have a question about dreams, Micciah. What do you see that dreams are? And how can we use them in healing?
Micciah: This is a dream. You mean sleep dreams.
Carol: Sleep dreams. The dreams we have while we’re sleeping.
Micciah: The dream realm, the other world, is an untrammeled realm in terms of time and space. To create is to create instantaneously, yes? You can say in your dream, “I wish to have a blue horse with wings,” and a blue horse will appear. It is where you work with creative energies not bound in the physical. It gives you a very open channel to the great aspects of self and to wisdom. Your dreams will supply you, will guide the personality, will point its nose in the right direction, because the dreams are not so much affected by the personality and its choices. The dream realm is woven with no barrier; it interfaces with the realm of the Great Self, of All That Is, of all time, no time, without the personality yacking at it. So you can consciously work with your dreams, ask for dream solutions.
You make a great separation in your culture between being awake and being asleep and dreaming. There’s not such great separation. What you call the waking state contains many moments of drifting, of moving into dream time, into the other realms. What you refer to as reality in your culture is just the personal self and its likes and dislikes and habits, preferences, and so forth. So dream realm is free time. And you can work things out in dream time that you might not want to materialize. If you are frightened of something, you can work it out in a dream. You can ask your dreaming self, “Well, I would like to work out my fear of having cancer in a dream . And I would like to experience that realization and awakening that’s possible in dream time. I would rather not do it in the physical body.” You can do that. And you can ask for solutions to your life’s dilemmas, but they won’t necessarily be solutions that the personality self likes. So, then the next movement is to help align the personality and the waking self with the wisdom of dream time. You are very psychic in your dreams, without any interference. If you would write down your dreams regularly, you would see that. Past and future pool together. And deep healing goes on in sleep because of the quietness of the talking self and the very easy access in dream time to the great love.
We do wish you would all engage with your dreaming selves if you don’t already do so, to make a bridge between waking and sleeping. You need time in the dream realm. The dream realm is also a probable reality, and what is born there lives, but it doesn’t live in this dimension. It is quite alive, and you make houses and families and lives that are lived out in dream time and cross what you see as other lifetimes.
Julie: Is it over? It’s over. What we do in class after a Micciah session is talk the material through, agree and disagree, and we’d love you to do the same.
Several final words. The thread that runs through my work of, which the channeling is one aspect, is healing. So, the thread of healing goes through my work with individuals, my teaching, my lecturing, my writing. And that healing, I believe, comes from a truthful exploration of one’s relationship with spirit. Spirit heals through us, and that healing enables us to be with the sacred nature of everyday life. I urge you to use your prayers and meditations toward experiencing the joy and sacred nature of life itself.
Julie: “This channeling is meant to be a spiritual, emotional, intellectual, heartful, mindful journey that I share with another realm, that I share with my classes and that we all share with you. Please go over the material, evaluate it for yourself, and know what it is that you think about it.”