MICCIAH CHANNEL: JULIE WINTER
Produced by Jon Child
Transcript of Program 58, 1986
Some of Julie’s early work in channel where Micciah gives meditations to individual class members concerning:
• The limitations of living life within a “box”, a set of beliefs and expectations about the way the world is. View Section
• Creating an intimate, committed relationship. Tell the truth to yourself about what you want. Meditate on having it exactly the way you want it. View Section
• Asserting oneself in relationships and saying no without feeling guilty. Learn to tolerate guilt feelings. Notice all the choices you make in daily life where you must say yes or no. View Section
• Allowing emergence of unfamiliar parts of the self, and healing splits in the self. View Section
Micciah: We greet you all, dear friends.
Julie: We do greet you, indeed. This is Micciah Channel, and I’m Julie Winter. Micciah is an energy entity who works with me while I’m in trance, and while I’m in the trance state I have access to a point of view that seems to come from a non-physical realm. This series of programs is drawn primarily from videotapes taken during my regular classes. We want to expand our circle, and include your energy and interest in our work.
Julie: This session was drawn from individual meditations requested by people in my healing classes. And as you watch and listen, you can choose the ones that appeal to you; they are designed for you to be able to use personally.
Micciah: We greet you all, dear friends. In the inquiring, in the asking and the searching and the looking under and over and around that you do, you expand the probabilities in your life. One of the ways of being empowered in the physical world is to be able to inquire, to say, “Well, I have believed about my life that a certain situation, say a relationship, is this way.” It is in a box. These are the parameters of the situation, this is the box. Then until such time as you inquire about it, “Well, maybe this isn’t the box, maybe I invented the box, maybe we could make a yurt or a teepee or a geodesic dome, maybe it doesn’t have to be a box.” Until such time as you inquire and take the power of inquiring, and the risk, it will stay in the box. Now the box can become more and more elaborately furnished, with ideas and counterideas, with decoration, with a complete renovation where you pull everything out of the box and then build a whole new structure, but it takes a deep, persistent kind of inquiry to notice that no matter how much you redecorate, it’s still the box. It’s the same structure. It is possible to let the structure go, to dismantle it, hopefully lovingly. Hopefully you are not going to set it [slam], squash the box. So now, in your personal meditations you are specifically asking to change the structure of something, to get out of the box, rather than to redecorate.
Many of your group beliefs, that is, the beliefs that are held by numbers of people, held in common, rest in a box. There is a box that says “We cannot feed everyone on the planet. Cannot do it.” You know that’s not, that not the truth, that’s a box. A box is “Weapons make peace.” Now that is some strange box. A box is “When the body dies, consciousness ceases.” That’s a box. So, many beliefs you have about your health, about sexuality, about healing... When you question the way you live your days, the movement that you take, the choices that you make, you will notice, you will become aware, that many of the boxes exist. A box, a box, a box, a box. We are not criticizing you, but we are saying that if you live in that way you miss out on so much of the creative possibility.
All right, what are your own questions? Please.
Lois: My question is, I would like a meditation to help me create an intimate, committed relationship in my life.
Micciah: To create an intimate and committed relationship. So, “this one” did a workshop last weekend, which we assisted with briefly, and it was about intimacy. In order to create any situation that is intimate, you must first tell the truth. And the truth moves. It is not the single, solid, permanent, cosmic truth. It is the truth, and the truth, and the truth, and the truth. So, there is some truth you need to tell yourself about the way you want to be in relationship. You have it. You have an idea about what it is, yes? A package. Or the box. So in your case, and in perhaps many people’s lives, that stops you. If you... This is the meditation. If you were going to invent the world, if you were going to invent what a deep and close and vital relationship was, never mind what you’ve heard about it, what you’ve read about it, what you’ve thought about it — it is like saying, Lois, imagine a color you have never seen. What would it be like? And you will see that it can contain many elements that you are not now including.
So, during the summer, during August, invent a relationship as if you were the creator, which you are. What would it be like if you invented it from nothing? From no thing. And those of you who work in your professional life with people, those of you who are healers and therapists in this group, this is a wonderful question to ask about relationships. If you were the creator, how would you invent it? And that will start to open up the sructure and let in situations and people that will quite amaze you. Now, also, this is about you. There is still some residual belief which you may bump into when you start to imagine how you would create a relationship, the parameters of a relationship out of nothing, that there will be a tug of war in your commitment. You are a very loyal, very tender person. And you are afraid you can’t put your commitment with your work and with your loving. There is still a kernel of fear about it. And that the price of an ongoing, live-in relationship will engender the loss of your creativity. So you need to word with that also, to imagine in the creation of the relationship space for all your qualities. Relationships don’t diminish people’s possibilities, they expand them. Hopefully. When people, someone says to you, “I am giving this up for you,” watch out. Make sure your wallet is in your pocket. Giving something up for another person, ostensibly for them, in the name of relationship, doesn’t work. You can choose to do something or not do it, but then it is not for the other person. So there is some... Do you understand? Is this clear?
Micciah: Good. There is still some belief that you would have to give it up in order to be devoted. Whereas if they go home, then you shut the door and you are in your private creative space. Women particularly have believed they had to give up things. And also men, but they were a different set of things. You can’t have women out of balance without men being out of balance. So...
Lois: Thank you.
Micciah: You are welcome. You will enjoy it. You could make a map also, the way we did in class last year. A relationship map. We would like you to work on relationships in September as part of learning to fly.
Sylvia: I would like a meditation to learn how to assert myself in relationships and to learn how to say no without feeling guilty.
Micciah: Ah. Well, we think at first it will be more of a question of saying, allowing yourself to say no and tolerating the guilt feelings, because if you wait for them to go away, you will have quite a long wait. So, you can imagine yourself in all of your daily relationships, for instance, when you choose what is on your plate, “Yes I want this, no I don’t want that. Yes I am going to brush my teeth now, no I am not going to take a shower now.” Practice mindfulness. Presence and awareness about all of your daily yeses and nos. You also have an idea about yourself that you can’t say no. This will show you all the areas of your life where you quite routinely say yes to this, no to that. And then you can begin to expand that into mindfulness about relationships where you very easily say yes to one thing and no to another. And you will begin to see that there are very specific areas where you have trouble saying no. It isn’t global. And there will be a point where you can just risk it. But that point will be supported by your being in the practice of awareness about all the daily yeses and nos. It will be fun. You will enjoy it quite a lot. And you will also expand your awareness of yourself, take yourself out of the box. And increase the vision and the sense of yourself as someone who does say no. The guilt about saying no. Good question. Do you also feel guilty when you say yes? Or is yes all right?
Sylvia: Uh, it depends. Easier to say yes. Thank you.
Micciah: You are welcome. You will see you have quite a definite mind. And you can play with it. Yes, no. No, yes. Yes, no. No. And notice the sensations in your body as you experiment with the different kind of no and yes. Your body is a very potent teacher of your inner truth. The bodily responses will tell you absolutely. That is different from saying “Well, I shouldn’t. I’m saying no, and I feel upset.” And then moving from the sensation to the idea, “I shouldn’t feel upset.” Then you have lost your power. Who cares if you shouldn’t? You do. You can’t deal with anything until you deal with the fact that you do. Or you feel... You say yes and you feel excited. Or you say no and you feel excited. And when the sensation goes from guilt, which is really a kind of fear, guilt is not an original feeling, to excitement, you will be very surprised.
Please go on.
Barbara: I would like a meditation that will help me to develop my inner courage or strength to allow those parts of myself that seem unfamiliar to me to come forth, both personally in my life and in my work, and along with that is healing the splits of myself, the split parts of myself.
Micciah: So, the split parts are all familiar parts that you are speaking of, but they are separated from each other? Is that right? Or...
Barbara: Yes. Mostly.
Micciah: The first part is that you sense very strongly there are ways in which you want to dismantle this box.
Barbara: Yes. And they’re so unfamiliar that I revert back to what’s familiar.
Micciah: So, what would be useful is the practice... When you are coming up towards something and you know you want to move somewhere but where will you put your feet? And since you, temperamentally, enjoy your own competence, that is one of the cloaks that you wear, you jump back. If when you push against the unknown can be in silence [pause], get yourself very quiet, whether you are working in a healing situation or in relationship or whatever, it will come to you how to move and what to do. Because there isn’t even a doorway there, Barbara, it’s all open, it’s just ready. You have created many strong probabilities for unfolding your skills and your abilities, your talents. They are sitting right there. This is true for a number of you here and perhaps for some of you watching as well. It is true for you, Mary Lou, that you have the creation ready. Yes, perhaps for most of you. In the inner realm, in the invisible world, you have created a new mode, let us say, for doing healing work, a new approach, new possibility. And there is not even a doorway, you will not bump your nose on a closed door, but you need stillness at the point... It is like catching, catching a firefly, gently. At the point where you feel that you are going to go back to the known, it happens all the time in healing situations, and they become very well known schools of therapy. People thump around on the same ground. You have to find stillness. And in the stillness, the courage to move your foot out will be there. It is not so much the courage to move but the courage to give up the protection of the familiar. And to fumble, maybe. Does that seem clear?
Micciah: You can take a crystal. [sound of blowing] We would say either clear quartz or dark color crystals, smoky quartz. And program it for stillness, for example. By being in stillness and holding it, and breathing the intention of stillness into it. And then carry it while you are working. Or have it near you. And when you want to go into the stillness you can hold the crystal. And we would also suggest specifically for you, Barbara, that you use the flower remedy, two together. One is called Mimulus. And the other [pause], we think it is Red Chestnut. You can ask “this one” about it later.
Now about the splits. [pause] If there is great pain, psychological pain, emotional pain, then sometimes there is a fracturing in the aspects of self. So two very different opinions and two apparently contradictory needs can be held by the same person and seem to be at war with each other. Healing of these splits comes in many ways. We will talk about two ways. One is a melting of... It is as if there has been emotional freezing, a crystallization, but the crystals can melt with compassion toward the self. So, when you run into a fracture in your own emotional makeup, instead of pummeling yourself about it, to offer compassion to yourself and also to hold the needs in paradox, to say “I need this and I need that.” Not one or the other. “I need to be vulnerable and loved and cared for and sometimes maybe even passive and infantile and regressed, so to speak. And I also need to be independent, autonomous.” And you can have them both. The splitting function implies at the emotional level that you must have one or the other. So, a combination of compassion about the dilemma and a willingness to at least entertain the possibility that both needs are possible. Is that clear?
Micciah: We will say goodbye to you for now. We and many of the energies of our realm, the other realm, another realm, are present with you when you work. Sort of a cross-cultural exchange. And we appreciate your work, your inquiring. As you inquire, all the parts of the great web of consciousness are affected beneficently.
We share with you much love and we bid you a very joyful summer. Good day.
Julie: Channeling is a little like that. That’s the end for now. What we do in class at the end of a session is go over the information, talk about it, evaluate it, find out what works for us individually and what doesn’t, and we invite you to do the same.
Julie: “This channeling is meant to be a spiritual, emotional, intellectual, heartful, mindful journey that I share with another realm, that I share with my classes and that we all share with you. Please go over the material, evaluate it for yourself, and know what it is that you think about it.”