MICCIAH CHANNEL: JULIE WINTER
Produced by Jon Child
Transcript of Program 60, 1986
Some of Julie’s early work in channel where Micciah gives meditations to individual class members concerning:
• Detachment from desire. Really allow and explore attachment in order to get through its hold. View Section
• Creating boundaries at home and at work. Tolerate discomfort of saying no. Evaluate practicality of clients’ demands at work. Do things for oneself at home. View Section
• Handling work difficulties and not taking them home. Practice saying no. Wash with salt water when leaving. View Section
• Making decisions from the core purpose, and allowing commitment. Commitment may be seen as imprisoning and restricting, but really “it is a journey.” View Section
• Releasing fears that prevent us from opening to other realms of consciousness. Release fear stored in the body by singing and chanting. View Section
Micciah: We greet you all, dear friends.
Julie: We do greet you, indeed. This is Micciah Channel, and I’m Julie Winter. Micciah is an energy entity who works with me while I’m in trance, and while I’m in the trance state I have access to a point of view that seems to come from a non-physical realm. This series of programs is drawn primarily from videotapes taken during my regular classes. We want to expand our circle and include your energy and interest in our work.
Julie: In this program people have asked for individual meditations. So, there are going to be personal meditations on a variety of subjects. You can use them yourselves — they are of general interest — and take from them whatever is most meaningful to you.
Micciah: We greet you all dear friends. In the inquiring and the asking and the searching and looking under and over and around that you do, you expand the probabilities in your life.
Pat: Micciah, I wanted to ask about the balance between a strong attachment to the desire and then the detachment from the desire to let it sort of happen in a fluid way, or manifest in a fluid way. And I wonder if you have a particular meditation for me to help me gain a kind of detachment so that I can allow the desire to manifest itself with fluidity and not be holding on so hard.
Micciah: Yes. How do you create something and allow the room, the spaciousness around it to have it manifest? Because when you have something clutched in your fist, yes?, and you say, why don’t you [breath exhaled] “I have breathed the energy of life into this plan, why doesn’t it sprout and flower?” But not too much room in there. So, how can you allow yourself to be like that? Well, we would suggest that you allow yourself the exploration of being as attached to it as possible. Thinking about all the ways you want it to happen, you need it to happen; really explore this before you get ready to open up. We think, Pat, that you begin to get into your attachment, become aware of it, because you are very quick at noticing your own behavior, you are very much aware of what you do. You catch yourself becoming attached and try to pull your fingers apart, so to speak, before it gets to this stage, but you leave yourself drifting in the middle because there is still an impulse to experience the attachment. You never let it go all the way. This is true for many of you in creating. Give yourself the opportunity. Do a dance about attachment, or a drawing, or a song. Allow the part of the self that would like to be attached to express itself, so you are not so quickly saying, “nu, nu, nuh, uhn, uhn, uhn uhn uhn uhn, don’t do that, don’t do that.” Because the more you say don’t do that, until there has really been the exploration, the more the yearning, the wave of yearning to attach persists. And when you feel the attachment come back, which it will — it’s not that you deal with it and sort of get rid of it once and for all — do the same thing, be with the attachment and the sensations of wanting, of needing. Go all the way through, and you will start to come out the other side. This sounds a little easier than it is because of the judgments about attachment and the things you won’t want to notice that you are attached to, so be compassionate with it. It is like asking you to explore your fears and the greed that is really a sprout that comes out of fear and the whatever, jealousy, envy, all the thoughts that are labeled “unpleasant.”
Pat: Thank you.
Ora: Micciah, I would like a meditation on becoming more autonomous by creating boundaries between myself and my clients’ needs at work, between myself and my family’s needs.
Micciah: Yes. You are very absorptive.
Micciah: All someone has to do is flick an eyelash at you, you start to... You get what it is they need, and anticipate what they will need next, and immediately go into action.
Ora: I’d like to be able to meet their needs and be there and...
Micciah: Well, some of your clients’ needs you will not be able to meet because encapsulated within what they are overtly asking for is what they are covertly asking for, and you tap in very quickly and astutely to the inner seed, the hidden seed within the overt request. So you are really trying to satisfy needs that are deep psychological needs that get clothed in more ordinary business needs. And with your clients you need to be aware that you are being pulled into a deeper need and to really take a breath and say, “Now this person is asking for a practical thing, can I do this or not?” and to endure the discomfort of saying no.
With your family, it is a somewhat different question because you are appropriately more attuned to their... or more wish to engage with their deeper needs. But you need to do something very direct. Make a list of three things that you need to do in the morning for you, and carry them out. You push your own needs aside and to the bottom of the list very easily. And when you do this, you will probably find, that you go into a spasm of guilt, but your clients will be better off for it and so will your family. And particularly with children, if you are attending to their deep needs, to their real need for contact and for truthfulness and for older children for their boundaries you do them a service by not attending to the inappropriate needs. Is that clear?
Micciah: Is this too mushy an answer?
Ora: No. It’s very clear.
Micciah: And because you need the practice, like sports practice, you need to write down, oh begin maybe not with three things, with one thing you’d like to do for yourself in a day, and choose it, say yes to it, and carry it out. Your children are very well cared for. You also have internalized some of the cultural beliefs about the mythic mother, or the mythic father, all-giving, all-seeing. And you know that is a set-up.
Ora: Thank you.
Micciah: The baby is very well, yes? It’s big.
Richard: My work environment has been very stressful. Many people asking me questions and having problems all day long, and I would like a meditation to allow me to handle and deal with each situation and each person as it comes up in a way that’s productive but does not distract me or cause me anxiety or to lose track of what I have to do. And also to allow that stuff to disappear when I leave work, that I don’t take those problems into other personal relationships or...
Micciah: Well your work environment is a little bit like your shirt. So part of the healing is telling the truth that the environment is like that. You know, you behave differently in a storm, with large hailstones and a lot of wind than you would on a balmy beach. Maybe in some great sense you could bring the balmy beach into the storm. So that is... We will try to bridge the gap here.
First of all, you also are very permeable, and you feel literally assaulted by the tugging, the pulling, in that situation, and it seems as if there is an undercurrent of fear in that place. They are afraid. The people who, we don’t know, who built the place, who own the place are afraid, and that penetrates the environment. So you need to know exactly what your work is and that you can say no. There seems to be a lot in this session about saying no — with a smile. “No.” You don’t like to say no, you tend to say yes, yes, yes until you can’t stand it any more and then you say NO! Or you feel no, you contract into a no, which of course would make the environment come after you! It’s like a magnet. So, you can practice saying no and smiling. “No, I’m not going to do that right now, I’m going to take care of this task.” It also seems as if, because of the chaos in the environment, people are looking to you, looking to anyone who looks reasonably stable. You are hearing with your inner ears a cry for help. Does that make sense? But you can’t rescue a situation. You can only do there what you are there to do. And if the situation falls around your ears, it’s going to sooner or later anyway, you can’t stop it. And that is very hard for you.
About bringing it away, or letting it go when you leave... [exhales] [pause] Can you do something physical when you leave? That represents letting it go? Wash your hands with salt? Scrub? Do something that is a ritual that says to your nervous system, “I’m leaving now.” And symbolizes a clearing out of the activity. Can you take the time? You don’t do very many rituals in your culture that are conscious rituals, they are mostly unconscious rituals. But it would help you to cleanse when you leave. Drink a glass of water. Scrub your arms and hands.
For any situation that you wish to release completely, it is good to wash off because water, the spirit of water, even chlorinated, fluoridated city water, is a spirit of cleansing and renewal. If you are feeling really harried, you can take a cup of water, put some salt in it, and imagine that... This is perhaps a better one. Imagine that all the troubles and irritations of the work hours are coming through you and out your hands. And plunge your hands into the water. You are letting them run out through your body into the water. The water is willingly collecting all the toxins of the agitation of those hours. And then pour it down the drain. And rinse the tap, you know, rinse out. And drink some water. It’s a good ritual for any kind of release. If you’ve been in a very tense situation, you tend just to carry it around. Not only you. And this makes for difficulties in the physical body. Digestive disturbances, headaches. So try that.
Julie: Okay, stop for a moment, and pay attention to what your response is to the information that’s just been channeled. Does it seem to be comfortable, right and appropriate for you? Would you like to think about it further? What does your body feel right now? What is your breath like right now? And now we’re going to go back and do some more channeling.
Christina: Micciah, I would like a personal meditation to help me make decisions and take action from my core purpose of being, in a joyful and easeful way.
Micciah: Do you feel that you are not doing this?
Christina: I feel that I’m not acting in accordance with my core being at this point. I feel very confused and afraid to make commitments that would enable me to...
Micciah: Ah yes...
Christina: share my gifts.
Micciah: We understand. It is the commitment. That is the problem. Because you do know a great deal about yourself and what matches your own being and what does not work for you. In some way, you see commitment as a jaw, you know, biting down on you; and if you could imagine commitment being like the journey of a winding river, following the path of the water and the rocks, that would ease your mind. To imagine a journey, to imagine commitment as a journey, Christina. You see it as being like cement shoes, that it is very heavy, and you take commitment very seriously. But again, this is a refrain. Commitment is not like a box into which you are locked and then the door shuts and that’s it for you. It is a journey, it is commitment and commitment and commitment; and true commitment tells you when it’s time to leave. Being committed to something has nothing to do with its longevity. It has nothing to do with how long something endures, but you imagine commitment as stretching ahead of you endlessly, with no change possible. Being committed means being wholly and fully present, and that could be very brief, in linear time. You understand what we are saying?
Micciah: It could be very brief. You could make a commitment, you could bring your whole presence to something; and because you were present in it you would also know when it was over, when you had moved from gestation, to initiation, to maturation, to completion, and release. So we, particularly for you, suggest imagining that your purpose, your inner purpose, which we think you do know, is taking you on a journey, and the journey constantly recreates itself. You will like that much better.
Christina: Thank you Micciah.
Micciah: And be good to yourselves, all of you. Treat yourself with kindness. Not indulgence. Kindness.
Rick: Micciah, we’ve talked about doors to other realms of consciousness being open.
Rick: And I would like to work on a meditation that would enable me to cast off or release the fears, the resistance, the old patterns that are keeping me from going through those doors.
Micciah: Yes. The demons. We are back to the demons. Do you ever chant?
Micciah: Rather than imagining that you will simply eradicate your fears, that they will pack their bundles and leave, imagine that you can sing with them. So when you feel yourself moving toward a new awareness, and then you feel frightened of the change, or whatever, begin to sound the fear. [makes sounds, a ha ha ha]. However it goes, sound it. So you hear it, and it becomes discharged through your tissues. You are holding a lot of fear in your body. And, uh, you’ve gotten some of it... You have released some of it. And you are right on the threshhold of walking through into major transformation, rebirth. And it is that place that is the most frightening, when your feet are on the threshhold, your toenails are over the door sill, and the winds of change are howling in your hair, in your ears, and that aspect of the self that does not want to change, that loves the familiar, begins to whisper, “Oh no, no, no, don’t do this, this is dangerous.” And you can sing, spend a little time every day, or every other day, singing. It will alter your state of consciousness in a very pleasurable way. You don’t sing enough. None of you sing enough. Sound, sound is a very powerful healing tool, agent. You know young people love such loud music. They are trying to blast themselves with the sound. Is that clear?
Rick: Oh yes. Thank you.
Micciah: You know the way of working with things is quite simple. And the conscious mind says, “Oh well, that’s all? That’s not very complicated.” Well, meditating isn’t very complicated, until you try it. Very simple, very complicated. And then it gets simple again, and then it gets complicated again. You could also make yourself a shield. You make things, yes? A magician’s shield, a warrior’s shield. And draw on it, or make it with collage and drawing, your shield, so you have the face of fear and also the doorway. You don’t use what is available to you.
Power garments. Churchly garb was originally meant to be power clothing. That is to say, it represented a state of being. The native American people still use their dress and the braids in their hair, some of them, as warrior braids, and the markings on the face represent states of being and consciousness. And all of this supports your creativity and your growth and your journeying.
Julie: I want to remind you that the channeling that I do with Micciah is really an ongoing exploration; in watching and listening, you’re part of the exploration. So the work is here and it is our intention to share it with those of you who watch. You need to evaluate it for yourselves, to go over the information, to assess what feels right to you. Use what feels right and let the rest go.
Julie: “This channeling is meant to be a spiritual, emotional, intellectual, heartful, mindful journey that I share with another realm, that I share with my classes and that we all share with you. Please go over the material, evaluate it for yourself, and know what it is that you think about it.”