Produced by Jon Child

Transcript of Program 84, 1987

Some of Julie’s early work in channel from 1987 where Micciah gives meditations and recommended actions to the class on:
Conceiving of life as play View Section
Cultural and personal attachment to moving faster View Section
Releasing old pain, tears, and defenses from the heart View Section
Healing the physical and emotional components of the self View Section
Discovering personal creative expression View Section

[This original tape has some minor problems, and is still quite viewable.]

   Micciah: We greet you all, dear friends.

   Julie: We do greet you, indeed. This is Micciah Channel, and I’m Julie Winter. Micciah is an energy entity who works with me while I’m in trance, and while I’m in the trance state I have access to a point of view that seems to come from a non-physical realm. This series of programs is drawn primarily from videotapes taken during my regular classes. We want to expand our circle and include your energy and interest in our work.


   Micciah: We greet you all, dear friends. So, let’s begin with your questions.

   Faye: I need some guidance in how to face the challenges that I know I’m up against at this point in my life. Healthy relationship, building my business. Just in general, breaking down old barriers. Maybe broadening my map, broadening my view of what my life could be.

   Micciah: Yes. It is not so much breaking down barriers, for you, as it is the capacity to conceive of life as play. You have a very focused approach to life. And if you could add into your initial conception about anything, relationship, project, work what would be playful in this situation, it would shift your perspective. You tend to think of what has to get done: “This is what has to be accomplished.” And this is true for many of you, you are in the habit of addressing the result, and you leave out your child self. So if you will ask yourself what does the child want?

   Faye: How can I find that child?

   Micciah: Oh, she is there. This is a good meditation for finding the child self if you have never done it before. Imagine that you are sitting in a room with a couch in it, that you are sitting on the couch, facing the doorway of a room, and you are sitting there for a few moments and then the child comes to the door. Notice the way the child approaches the door, comes into the room, comes over to you, makes contact with you. And then ask her or ask him, “What do you need?” And this very simple and basic approach will begin to connect you with your child. And the child is connected... We will say again, the child is connected with the sacred fool. The sacred fool is the element of the self that has vast capacity for playfulness and for paradox and for dynamic choice. So begin with that and see where you go.

   Faye: Thank you.

   Micciah: The adult self will very often say, to a response of this kind, “No, no, I want a plan. I want to be able to do something that is like exercise.” But that’s not the way it works.
   Please go on.

   Rick: Now that I find I am progressing a little bit, now that I’m able to release old fears, I’m having trouble not being disappointed in myself for not progressing faster, ...

   Micciah: Ah yes, faster.

   Rick:...not accomplishing more.

   Micciah: Another favorite word. This speed-oriented culture. There is no time, and there is no faster. There really isn’t anywhere much to go. [laughter] But our saying that we know does not help you in the serious question that you are asking. Could you ask yourself what attachment do you have to faster? Again, you could all do this, those of you who haven’t. Certainly “this one” is temperamentally very interested in speed. Could you ask yourself what attachment you have to faster? What value do you give to quickness? Because quickness is no better than slowness. And each has an appropriate, each situation of life, each element in its own time has an appropriate rhythm. So first, Rick, ask yourself, and if you all ask yourselves your answers will be different, what attachment do you have to going faster? Learning faster, being more spiritual quicker? What makes that better, in terms of your judgments? And then, if you will pay attention, if you will ask in all the moments of your doingness, ask the situation to sing to you and tell you its own rhythm, what is the ideal rhythm for this situation. You know in Buddhism, when the tea ceremony is performed, if they wanted to do it faster, they would just pour tea out of a spigot. There is not any value in doing it faster. Why go through all that work just to get a cup of tea? [laughter] But your whole life is like that. There are things that cannot be done any faster. And each situation, if you listen with your heart and with your inner ear, will tell you its own rhythm. Part of the addiction to speed, in group mind, is a fear of contact, the fear of intimacy. Either intimacy in relationship, with people, intimacy with one’s self, intimacy with a situation. How do you get intimate with brushing your teeth? Well think of it this way. We know you will understand that every action contains the possibility to do it heartfully, to do it with your heart. And you can brush your teeth or make breakfast with your heart, and that is, we assure you, not something that can be hurried and it is as important as anything you will ever do. It is really being, it isn’t doing. It is bringing the quality of beingness into what you do. Does that make sense?

   Rick: Yes.


   Julie: Stop for a moment. Take a breath. Notice how you feel and what your responses are to the information that you have just seen. Do you need to go over it? Think about it? Integrate it? Look around the room you’re in. And in just a moment we’re going to go back and look at some more taped sessions of Micciah Channel.


   Woman: I would like to have some guidance on letting go and releasing old pain, tears, and defenses from my heart.

   Micciah: When there has been much hurt in the emotional body, then defense layers develop. And this can not be torn away, any more than you would rip the head off a flower. So the first quality is compassion toward the defenses that were created because they were necessary. Not to be punitive and abusive toward your own defenses. “Why am I so defensive? Why am I so sad? How stupid to be sad!” That sort of internalized, Hitlerian, sadistic voice. So first, compassion. And pay attention to the way you speak to yourself. And begin to change the voice that you use while you address yourself, not to use a voice that is abusive. And if you notice that you are, just move it gently, otherwise you will be in a cycle, abusing yourself and then beating yourself up because you are beating yourself up and then, you know, on and on. And then, if you would envision the heart center and imagine the deep sadness and pain, the encrustations of defenses, and draw what it looks like. You don’t have to be a great artist. Make a drawing of it. An objective drawing. All the colors, shapes that represent the pain and the layers of defense lodged in the geography of the heart center. And then [pause] make an altar, some silk, a scarf, a few flowers, some fruit — whatever represents life energy to you. Crystals. Put it all together. And every day when you meditate offer love to that drawing. Meditate at the altar. And also burn some incense and a candle. Do it as a ritual, because healing and ritual, when the ritual is meaningful, assuming the ritual is meaningful, are intimately connected. The aspect of self that responds to healing responds to ritual. And do it for about a week, it doesn’t have to be every day. See how you want to do it. After a week, put that drawing away, go back into the heart center, envision it again and make another drawing. This has several purposes. One is to pay attention to the pain and to objectify it, to draw it outside the self by putting it on paper and then to heal it by offering love. And keep on going. Could do it for months. And you will experience a definite and distinctive shift. This is important. Offering love to your pain, healing your pain with love, works much better than being hateful toward the pain, which doesn’t work at all.


   Julie: OK, I’m back again. Take a break. Look around the room at the slice of reality that you are in at this moment. Take a breath. Let yourself relax. Shake out. And we’re going to go back and look at some more Micciah Channel.


   Micciah: Please continue.

   Betsy: Micciah, I am grateful for some work we have done before on healing my physical body.

   Micciah: Yes.

   Betsy: And am moving forward in that area.

   Micciah: Yes, there is much... You have something in your spine?

   Betsy: Yes, a rod. It’s fused. And I’m working on creating a healthier body and healing the physical body and the emotional body that was damaged as a child.

   Micciah: Yes, yes.

   Betsy: And I am somewhat stymied in this area...

   Micciah: Yes.

   Betsy: And I think also professionally this is affecting me. And actually my healing may be a new direction for my life purpose and my life work to become.

   Micciah: You mean your becoming a healer?

   Betsy: Yes.

   Micciah: Yes. We see you wrapping yourself. Spread out a blanket on the floor, a quilt or so, and roll yourself into a cocoon, so you are completely held. And you could do it in your therapy work, with Lynne, and she can hold you on top of that. Holding and comforting are an element that is needed now for further healing of the emotional body. So you can do it alone, roll yourself up and rock. Not even upright. Down on the floor. And do it with Lynne. And sounds that have a comforting nature, crooning, rocking, lullaby. Sounds. And with that, you also need movement that is as wide as possible because one of your issues, psychologically and in your work, is taking up space. So one meditation is rolling up small, being enclosed and comforted, rocked and crooned to. And the other is to make yourself as wide as possible. See how much space you can take up, in all directions. [breath] And then breathe into your wideness and your bigness, and sound all the way to your fingertips and the top of your head and your toes. [pause] One more thing. We feel that laying on of hands could be useful, in addition to the more concrete, physical work, that the outer layers that surround the physical body can be further aligned by laying on of hands and that would cause an adjustment in the physical.

   Betsy: Thank you.

   Micciah: You are welcome.

   Sara: My question is about creative expression. I would like some guidance to help me to realize what my creative expression is and how it relates to my purpose in life.

   Micciah: The essence of your creation, of your creative expressivity, is communication. Now, one could say well in the general sense that’s true of all creative expression, obviously. But you, yours is not so much writing, where you would write a book and it would go out and be in people’s hands, but it has to do with contact, Sara, with seeing what is happening as you express. You are already a very good clown. Your work needs to be done on the most physical concrete level. Your creativity is very strong. It needs a container, like a building, to grow, the idea of a building that is all done, has to have foundations and all the stones have to be put up, the bricks or whatever. Do you understand?

   Sara: Umhuh.

   Micciah: So, you too, if you can bring your wily self, your inner child, to help you with the discipline. And it doesn’t have to be the same way every day. One day you could do one kind of work, another day you could do another kind of work. But it needs a rhythmic pattern that is literally mapped out, that you will go to the studio one day and then you will skip a day and then you will work at home. That you will practice your clowning the next day in front of a mirror. It can be different things, but write down what they are going to be, even with times, so that you can make a frame. But it’s not your creativity. It’s the structure. Your creativity is like ivy, like flowers, growing wildly.

   Sara: Umhuh.

   Micciah: And your inner child too needs you to mother her, to take her by the hand. “We’re going to do this creative stuff together.” [pause] Those are the first steps. And on an essence level, what do you want to say, creatively? Because you have many ideas. But what is the main thread of what you want to say? And how can all your creativity carry that sense so that it has cohesiveness? So, is that clear?

   Sara: That’s clear. Thank you.

   Micciah: You are welcome. We wish you a most loving and joyful evening and we bid you good night.


   Julie: That’s the end of this particular segment... of this particular adventure. And this channeling is meant to be a spiritual, emotional, intellectual, heartful, mindful journey that I share with another realm, that I share with my classes and that we all share with you. Please go over the material, evaluate it for yourself, and know what it is that you think about it. So long.

   Julie: “This channeling is meant to be a spiritual, emotional, intellec­tual, heartful, mindful journey that I share with another realm, that I share with my classes and that we all share with you. Please go over the material, evaluate it for yourself, and know what it is that you think about it.”