Produced by Jon Child

Transcript of Program 130, 1989


Some of Julie’s early work in channel from 1985 and 1988 where Micciah discusses:
Unexpected loss and tragedy: an absolute in the dualistic world. A “teaching” in each particular life; it always holds the seed of greater attunement to the One. To find that seed is a “task.”
Do we make our choices in life, including the “horrible” ones, at birth? The personality self does not create, does not choose; the Great Self chooses as a teaching, for growth. “There are some very dramatic circumstances that will be chosen for the hidden sweetness of the experience that is masked to the personal eyes.” Be gentle and compassionate with the personality self.
Being judgmental: Spiteful judgments of others come from fear of something in oneself, and are a signal to examine same.
“Right to life”: A soul wishing to incarnate cannot be prevented. Abortion should be a “ritual of release” performed by both parents. We should not have more babies who cannot be cared for.

   Micciah: We greet you all, dear friends.

   Julie: My Name is Julie Winter, and this program is called Micciah Channel.
   And what you are going to see is me, going into an altered state of consciousness, a non‑ordinary state of awareness. And what I believe happens when I am in that state is that I enter an expanded geography of the self, and that there is an overlap between what I know (my intelligence, my awareness, my experience) and something that is larger than my ordinary awareness. It may indeed be that it is all part of my awareness and that would be fine. What’s produced is a personality that is a product of this overlapping and the personality is called Micciah. My voice is going to change and it is my own voice. The variations in speech have to do with my being in an altered state.
   The program is created from my classes. My students bring questions in. We encourage you to do the same. And use your discernment in evaluating the information that comes through.
   The program that you are about to see is made up of a number of different class sessions.


   Micciah:  We greet you all, dear friends. 

   Sue:  Micciah — my husband died unexpectedly.  Every day people go through tragedies or incidents like that.  How do I understand it, and how do they understand it?  How do we as people understand tragedy?

   Micciah:  The specific nature of that experience, that teaching in your life — that (we use the word “teaching” advisedly) is particular to you.  In the greater sense, you must begin with the notion that within the dualistic world — within the outer expression (what we are calling the “outer history”) — there is always loss, violence.  We wish there were not personal violence, but there are always earthquakes in the environment, volcanoes, tidal waves; and in the inner environment, heart attacks, response to a virus or a bacteria which kills the body.  Always, in the world of duality, there is violence and loss and death, separation, the unexpected — always.  Always.
    Enfolded, however, within all circumstances is the possibility to come to a greater compassion, an inner climate of unity.  Always: we will say that again.  Always.  Enfolded within the outer circumstance is the possibility to join in deeper union with All That Is.
    So — that experience of union, that seeking for union, is never denied you.  It can come through your dreams and through your meditations, and through friends, and in mysterious and outrageous ways, and in ordinary ways.  That is never denied.
    That the physical world will burst, will fling itself apart, will fall on you, or that a body can erupt with a disease, will always be true.  You cannot hold onto anything in the physical dominion as permanent.
    And in that ongoing sense of the One, the seeds of greater attunement are sown within the experience of loss or chaos.  We do not wish to put a gloss over it, or to mask the sorrowing and suffering in a kind of sprightly falsity.  When you are engaged in a tragic circumstance, you must dig, or ask, or beseech, to find that seed.  It is, ah ... a task.  In the greatest sense — [sigh] — you are always held by Spirit.  But to experience that in the midst of chaos, of war, of pain, is a great undertaking.
    There have been times upon the earth, in the outer history, of far greater harmony than you now have; but there has never been a time without volcanoes (although there has been a time when your receiving of them was different).


    Amielle:  Micciah, I have two questions.  The first one relates to what Lois was asking.  In a lot of New Age thought it’s said that each action in a life is a matter of choice, and if horrible things happen, we have chosen them for some particular purpose.  I wonder about that.  I also wonder on what level that functions and whether that choosing is something that’s done at birth, or throughout the whole life span, or previously?  You know, we come in collecting certain kinds of experiences for certain kinds of growth.

   Micciah:  Yes.  You must understand that from the point of view of the personality and the focus of the personality, what seems horrible may from the point of view of the Great Self be desirable.  And these are tricky waters.  We will see if we can negotiate.
    We do not mean in the traditional sense of karma that, for instance, you have been a murderer and therefore will be murdered.  No.  However, if you eliminate the fear of death — the Great Self is not afraid of death — you understand that there are some very dramatic circumstances that will be chosen for the hidden sweetness of the experience that is masked to the personal eyes.  We are not extolling the virtues of tragedy. It is a paradox.
    You must be able to live in the power of paradox, because at one and the same time you are on the earth to find the vulnerable heart, to feed all the bodies, to shelter everyone.  And at the same moment, the Great Self sometimes will choose a life that to the personality is abhorrent, is difficult, is hungry in the belly; and something will be drawn from the essence of that life that nourishes the whole.  And all the hungry bellies reflect the totality of consciousness.  In the lives where you do not have a hungry belly, if there is one person on the earth that does, that belly is yours too.  So it is, again, webs of paradox.
    We would like to clarify a point we have spoken of the last couple of sessions.  The personality self is not the part of the self that creates, in the sense that you are using the word “create.”  You create your reality.  But it is not Nancy’s personality who creates.  Although the personality may make choices, it must enlist the greater forces.  Again, this is a model.  The personality cannot create in that sense.  It cannot heal, it cannot make sick.  In a life where the personality rules supreme, where there is a sense of the being very much locked into a narrow frame — at least that’s what you see — the personality enlists the support of the Great Self in creating that narrow frame.  That is all right to experiment with that.  And sometimes there are very specific choices that are desired by, again, a whole cluster of personalities, of life essences.  So there is a cluster, let us say, of lifetimes, important to Amielle and her focus, that wish certain choices to be made.  Then there is a sort of group decision to make those choices.  At the point where the personality focus softens, or loosens, and life is seen from the heart, from the greatness of the entire dance, much becomes clear.  And we urge you very strongly to be gentle with your personality.  Gentle.  The needs of the personal self must be cared for before you can move out a bit.  You don’t ask someone whose belly is starving to give up food, to fast, for purity.  This would be nonsense.
    We are saying several things.  First, there are choices that are made upon coming into a life to experience things which when viewed from the perspective of the personality are not intelligible.  That is because your personality is full of judgments.  And there are lifetimes where the personality structure becomes transparent.  That is what it means to be transparent.  And then choices are made not so much for the comfort and the care of the personality but for the ecstasy of creation and the rhythm of ordinary life and that kind of ecstasy.
    We would like you to pay attention, to watch, all of you.  You have been doing this.  Which areas of the being informs a particular choice?  You can change that.  You may have been stuck for years and years and years of earth time with a certain choice.  It gets lodged in the nervous system, you know, and you keep making it again and again.  You may suddenly look at that and say, “Oh, that choice!  I don’t need that one any more.”  Then you can slowly change it, gently.  And you have to change it in your nervous system, which will keep wanting to follow the old pattern.  “No, no.  No, no.”  Like with that child, gently.  “Now we are making this choice, because this choice is more deeply connected, more rooted, in what I am truly passionate about.”


    Please continue.

   Carol:  Micciah, my question has to do with judgment, and being judgmental.  If it is true that if at the center of most of our judgments is some kind of fear — if the source of judgment is fear, and that — people say that what you hate most in other people is what you really hate about yourself, how do we begin to address those things in ourself that are — buttons that are pushed by other people, at the same time that we protect ourselves from behavior that is inappropriate or —

   Micciah:  Ah!

   Carol:  — or is “bad” behavior?

   Micciah:  Ah!  In other words, how do you observe that a person is arousing judgments in you, without needing to have the person around?

   Carol:  [With a laugh]  Right.

   Micciah:  That is what you do.  You take (speaking of outer communication and inner mythology, or essence!) — if you behave abusively to someone, or they to you, and you notice that you have a judgment about their behavior, you can remove yourself from the person and work with the judgment.  Which might be judgments and inner-directed hatred toward the way you abuse yourself; or, ah — ah — little compassion for the ways that you are afraid and therefore judgmental.  Is that what you are asking?

   Carol:  In a way, yes; some of it.  But in — we were talking about the judgments that we have every day, in life; and what is — is their source in us fear?

   Micciah:  Mostly.  Mostly.  You do need to be able to evaluate, in life, what serves you and the ecology of you as a planet and the ecology of the greater planet.  You need to be able to evaluate.  But when you speak of judging, you can evaluate a situation and say, with love, “No, that’s not the right situation for me.  I don’t want to be in that situation.”  Judgment, you are assuming, has a — a — something in it that is cruel or spiteful?

   Carol:  Um-hmm — yeah —

   Micciah:  Yes, that comes from fear.  Fear, and often the need to make the self, ah — plumped up with righteousness.  When there is a low sense of self-esteem, one way to enlarge it (inauthentically, but it is a way that comes to hand readily) is to say, “Well!  Can you imagine that person — doing such-and-such!”  And then that acts as a magnet, and then you can get all the other people around you to agree with you; and there is a sense of inauthentic solidity and righteousness.
    And that, in turn, is different from being, let us say, again in an abusive situation and needing support from other people to help you identify: “Yes, that is abusive.”  If you were abused as a child, you will have trouble identifying abusive behavior and you will indeed need support from other people who say, “Yes.  Yes, it is.  Yes, it is.”
    So, judgments — in general, judging arises from fear.  And what you judge in others is something that you fear.  It may not only be something you fear within yourself, exactly.  Let us say that there are new people coming into your area, and they are going to steal your jobs.  (The economic situation has been set up to pit people against each other.)  So you are afraid that they will take something from you.  Then, that fear may be expressed readily as hatred toward the others: they are this or that racial group or ethnic background; they are dirty, they are bad; we don’t want them here!  That comes from a fear, really, of loss, that is clothed as an attack, rather than being able to deal with the fear of loss to act protectively in the economic community for everyone’s good.  Is that what you mean?

   Carol:  Yes.

   Micciah:  So sometimes there are characteristics in another person that they mirror to you, and they are characteristics that you dislike in yourself, that you have no compassion toward in yourself. Then you may well be rejecting of them in another person, and sort of fluff up your defenses against them: “Oh — what they are doing!  Can you imagine that?  Such a terrible thing!”  And that, in the inner world, is a communication to you to look at what it is you are hating so much in yourself, what you cannot tolerate in yourself.
    We would like to  speak about, ah — the right to life, about abortion:
    You cannot prevent a soul that wishes to enter from entering. That soul will find a pathway.
    As we have said before, the best method is to protect the body from conceptions that are not intended to go into life, to make that readily available in a harmless form.
    You know, when a baby is conceived, the father is pregnant also, in terms of the energy fields of all of the beings concerned — [very loud door-buzzer] we certainly rang the bell on that one! —

    — the energy field of the father is concerned.  And an abortion needs to be a ritual of releasing that is engaged in by both people, hopefully, and that is acknowledged as a drama within the body and then healed.  It is not a simple surgical procedure: we are talking about the creation of a life-form.  Nor is it appropriate, we feel, to have more babies for whom you cannot care and whom you cannot feed.
    So ... is that clear?

   Students:  Yes.

   Micciah:  [Loudly]  Thank you all so much.
    We share with you much energy and much love.  And we bid you a very lovely day.


   Julie: That’s the end of this particular segment... of this particular adventure. And this channeling is meant to be a spiritual, emotional, intellectual, heartful, mindful journey that I share with another realm, that I share with my classes and that we all share with you.
   Please go over the material, evaluate it for yourself, and know what it is that you think about it. So long.

   Julie: “This channeling is meant to be a spiritual, emotional, intellec­tual, heartful, mindful journey that I share with another realm, that I share with my classes and that we all share with you. Please go over the material, evaluate it for yourself, and know what it is that you think about it.”