MICCIAH CHANNEL: JULIE WINTER
Produced by Jon Child
Transcript of Program 59, 1986
Some of Julie’s early work in channel where Micciah gives meditations to individual class members concerning:
• The inherent abundance of spirit, or god, or whatever you wish to call it. View Section
• Inertia in one’s creative life. Make a ritual that symbolizes binding and unbinding the self. View Section
• Regaining a sense of personal power, and shedding obsolete parts of the self. Undischarged emotion must be released. Visualize a path leading you in the right direction, and meditate on it. View Section
• Creating comfort and joy in life. You can choose to be joyful. You must uncover judgements you have about yourself in order to allow joy. View Section
• Allowing success. Start with self-worth. Examine your notions about success. Meditate and allow stillness. View Section
• Finishing projects. There is a fear of letting go. Look at the nature of saying goodbye. View Section
• Living peacefully. Aliveness is identified with storminess and upset. Meditate on the fear of loss of identity if peacefulness is allowed. View Section
Micciah: We greet you all, dear friends.
Julie: We do greet you, indeed. This is Micciah Channel, and I’m Julie Winter. Micciah is an energy entity who works with me while I’m in trance, and while I’m in the trance state I have access to a point of view that seems to come from a non-physical realm. This series of programs is drawn primarily from videotapes taken during my regular classes. We want to expand our circle and include your energy and interest in our work.
Julie: This session was drawn from individual meditations requested by people in my healing classes. And as you watch and listen, you can choose the ones that appeal to you; they are designed for you to be able to use personally.
Micciah: Yes, we greet you all, dear friends. We would like to speak for just a moment about generosity and being fed by life. And about the truth of abundance which is present everywhere. The great source of nourishment is not the personality self, although as we always say, you do need your personality, it is valuable, it is honorable; but the source that you can depend on is the conduit, the open flow, between the self and the inherent abundance of spirit, or god, or whatever you wish to call it. So you say, “Well yes, then how come there’s so much trouble?” No one is living inside of you but you. No one but you can choose to open to that source. And your opening to it has nothing to do with your physical state of being. Nothing to do with your material circumstances. Although when there is hunger, physical hunger — which is a shame, because you can feed everyone on this planet, you could feed everyone now — when there is physical hunger that is not apparently not freely chosen, that is you are not choosing to be on a fast, then that is the first order of the business, yes? But you can call on the abundance of spirit to guide you in giving up your territoriality that prevents you personally and as a nation and internationally from feeding everyone. Feed people and serve people. So when you say about another person, “Oh, I am the victim. This person is not giving me what I need.” Or, “Life is not giving me what I need,” it may be that you are experiencing constriction of the personality self and that can be worked with gently, gently, to open to the real abundance which is always present and which can provide miracles, including food. There are many stories of teachers, through their attunement, providing food. Feed people and serve people. Serving doesn’t mean martyring yourself to someone. That does not serve them, yes? Having a martyr on your neck is a pain in the neck. Serve yourself, serve spirit, serve life.
So, now, please, what would you like to ask?
Betsy: Micciah, my question is rather relevant to what you were speaking of. I feel presently in my life that I am in an inertia in my creative power.
Betsy: Both in my relationships and in my work, in my writing. And I feel that it is the intellectual body that is disengaged from the other bodies and has stymied me for the moment. And I’m working on how I can get unstuck and out of the inertia.
Micciah: Yes. Right. Let us see. When you are stuck in your creativity, when nothing seems to move, which is partially an illusion because everything is always moving, you recreate, you recreate being stuck. You create it and then you create it again and then you create it again. It would be useful for you at this point to make a ritual for yourself where you specifically make a form or an object and bind it. That is the bound self. And then put it with whatever symbolizes to you being unbound; it could be a candle with a flame, it could be a vase of water, a bowl of water. And fight it out in a ritual.
We would like to speak a bit about rituals. The rituals that you use in your culture are mostly unconscious, and you have not very much understanding that you can fight something out on ritual ground by choosing to do so. So be the constricted self, Betsy, and then move with it. Be the water, or the flame, be the moving self. And let them have a dialogue with each other. You could heal much of what you call neurotic behavior, which itself is highly ritualized, if you would pull those elements out and say, “I will make a ritual with them, I will dance with them, play with them.” And, we would advise for this particular one that you do it in the bright part of the day, in the sunny part of the day. It is a way of expressing the dilemma without harming yourself. And then ask the fluid portion of the self to start speaking in your ear about new ideas.
Florence: Micciah, I would like your help with the following. A meditation that will help me to regain a sense of my own power and a sense of further integration of myself so that I feel powerful and use that to shed the outmoded aspects of my life and move forward in my truth.
Micciah: Within you at this time there is much undischarged feeling. The feeling self, the feeling body, the emotional body needs to clear itself out, clear an accretion of very volatile feeling. And you can’t, you won’t really have a sense of your own power until you release some of the feeling you’ve been holding. It is taking up a lot of emotional space. So first, whatever way you would like to do that. You can do it by writing it, you can do it by being in therapy, you can do it by whatever mode pleases you most.
And then we would suggest that you do a series of meditations. Imagine yourself in the structure of a pyramid that goes all the way down around your body and that coming from the back of your neck there is a path, from right beneath the skull, which is a very powerful charging point, there is a path that leads you where you want to go. And you will need to do this consistently. Visualizing the pyramid, visualizing the path, and visualizing yourself, or imagining yourself, moving on the path. And as you go, ask for what you need on each journey. And then follow it up. You have a very direct connection with the greater energies. It’s clogged.
Lainie: Micciah, recently you suggested a ritual that I do in asking for help to create comfort in my life. I would like to expand on it in terms of a meditation, or in terms of just an expansion of it to create a greater awareness of the joy that is there, because it keeps escaping me.
Micciah: Yes. You know you can choose to be joyful. You think it is very mysterious, but you can choose. Mostly what separates you from your own joy is judgment. So we would suggest that when you are feeling really wretched you keep asking yourself why is this, why is this, why is this, until you press all the way through, until you find the judgment, the little rat. [laughter] When you find it, probably there will be a release of feeling and then you will just be able to choose joy. Joy — we don’t mean happiness, smiling all the time — joy comes from the presence of your aliveness. It does not really come from circumstance. Probably many of you have lived through circumstances that were difficult and severe, and you felt the presence of your own aliveness so that you were in the paradox of a hard time and also great aliveness. Conversely, you can have the most wonderful circumstances and not feel very good. So we are not in any way suggesting you fake it, but that when you feel down, when you feel badly about your life, about your choices, keep asking why. You can all try this one. Why? We don’t mean why intellectually. “Why do I need to feel this way right now?” Not so much why am I feeling. “Why do I need to feel this way right now? Why do I need to feel this way right now? Why must I feel this way right now?” And you will find there is a point, it is visceral, where you [claps] hit into your judgment. And then there is an uprush of feeling. And your natural aliveness has a little more space to take over. You must learn to deal lovingly with the demanding quality of the personality self. It always wants what it wants. If you try to follow up on all those demands you will be very unhappy. You think you are not happy because of a circumstance, but that’s not it.
David: I want a meditation around success. It’s very clear to me that success in this life for me comes from an inner success, an outward manifestation of success is related to inner success. And it seems to be a big struggle for me, for some reason. I want to choose to be successful and yet...
Micciah: You have to start with self worth. Unless you value yourself, nothing and no one can make it up to you. Many people are driven very hard in the outer world, or driven within their families, to say “Love me, love me, love me. You must love me, you must tell me I’m all right.” What has gone awry is the capacity to value yourself. You have a lot of ideas, David, about what is valuable. And they are not really serving you. And your loving yourself just for being is the point, the place, the inner state we would suggest you go. And then you will create out of that experience. It isn’t that you don’t love yourself, but there have been a lot of ideas, they fly around, they fly around and create a disturbance of many wings, too many ideas, and they’re in your way. And we would suggest for you some silent meditation, which we don’t always suggest. That you really learn to meditate in perhaps the Buddhist fashion, or the Zen Buddhists, or the Tibetan Buddhists, or a simple meditation where you follow your breath, a breath awareness, to help yourself become still. Because in the stillness, in the inner stillness, which you had as a child and vacated, you vacated that place, you will drop in, like dropping in to a pool of the inner truth about yourself. And that will shift everything else. We would suggest that you meditate perhaps 20 minutes and then half an hour, about five days of seven. But don’t make it like school. And “this one” will suggest later some books on Buddhism which you will find very interesting. You need the inner stillness.
Allan: Micciah, I would like to have a meditation on, I guess it’s a number of things. I seem to find periodically that there are a number of things I would like to accomplish, I start them, and then I don’t finish them. And sometimes it’s a while before I even realize that I’m not finishing them. So it appears that I get stuck in initiation, and I would like to...
Micciah: It is more that you have a fear of letting go. You initiate, and the project does... You do allow a stage of maturing, but you don’t like to finish it up because then you’re going to have to cut the umbilical cord, wave goodbye. So projects lie dormant. You might meditate on what it means to you to say goodbye. What is the nature of saying goodbye, of completing? And what are your feelings about it? An d you could make a drawing, Allan. What does a drawing that is completion look like? What does saying goodbye look like? Making drawings will tell you things that thinking about it won’t tell you. You may discover in the drawing that you are drawing death. But you may also discover that what you are afraid of is not death but further expansion, that you have a fear of outstripping your colleagues, or your parents. So, meditate on what it means to say goodbye, and make a drawing, or perhaps several drawings, that speak to you, demonstrate to you the image of goodbye. And also, if you meditate on abundance, you will help remind yourself that one thing goes and another comes in.
Allan: Thank you.
Micciah: Yes. Please go on.
Eve: Micciah, I’d like to live peacefully for a change, I’d like the golden age to be a little bit golden.
Micciah: No, no, you don’t want to live peacefully.
Eve: No? I thought I did.
Micciah: No, no. You identify a lot of your beingness with storminess.
Eve: That’s right.
Micciah: So to live peacefully, you are going to have to identify with being peaceful.
Just a moment. We will look. When you shift the way in which you identify self, that is frightening. So although you wish with part of yourself to be at peace, the part that identifies its aliveness, its being alive, with being churned up becomes frightened and thinks it’s going to die. The identification... Do you understand this? If you identify with a particular state of mind, or quality of being, when you start to shift that — the aspect of the self that says, “But this is me! This upset is me! This is how I know I haven’t died yet. I am upset therefore I live.” Or, “I crave marijuana therefore I live.” Or “I need success,” or relationship, or whatever, that’s how I know I’m alive, because I’m in the yearning of it,” when that starts to fall away, there is fear, because that feels like death. So you want it and you don’t want it. And what you need to be able to meditate with is the fear. And we feel for you also that you need silent meditation. And in the silence you will start to have that peace dawn itself to you, with you. Although you are not physically active, you don’t run a marathon, yet you are not really still. And stillness is important.
Eve: Thank you.
Micciah: We will bid you goodbye for now. We share with all of you much love and all your livingness, your experimenting, your inquiring, is a great delight. We bid you a very good day.
Class: Thank you, Micciah.
Julie: What we do in class after a Micciah session is talk the material through, agree and disagree, and we’d love you to do the same.
Julie: “This channeling is meant to be a spiritual, emotional, intellectual, heartful, mindful journey that I share with another realm, that I share with my classes and that we all share with you. Please go over the material, evaluate it for yourself, and know what it is that you think about it.”